First Trimester Review

I’m officially on my 15th week now! Yay! This is day 1, so there’s not much I can say about the second trimester. But I’m holding on to hope and praying that it’s everything everyone says it will be. ❤

Bye, first trimester! You were a doozy, but amazing and magical at the same time. Squishy was made known through you, and for that, we thank you. ❤

Here are a couple of things that have helped me through my first trimester (aka my survival kit):

  1. Pillows in a variety of sizes and with a variety of fluffiness. I used about five pillows: a feathered pillow, one of those pillows that expand when you remove the bag, an old fashioned hard pillow, a hot dog pillow, and our R2D2 throw pillow. It’s like playing Tetris every night to see which arrangement will make the most sense for my aching back.
  1. Organic bug repellent. We had so many kinds! Sprays, lotions, and oils. I had a few of my own and my mother-in-law sent us a bunch. Trying to keep the creepy crawlies and the flying spaghetti monsters away. I realized that this was mostly for our peace of mind. If I can do something that will make me worry less, I should just do it. Worrying is not worth it when you’re sleep deprived.
  1. Tiger Sahara water jug. I would often describe the first trimester as constantly feeling like you’ve exercised for the first time in years (even if you were just in bed all day). That meant I was always thirsty (which also meant I always needed to pee, hehe). This water jug that my mother-in-law lent us was a life saver. It stays ice cold for over 24 hours and it’s handy enough to bring everywhere.
  1. iPad Mini. My husband got me an iPad Mini last year for Christmas: “if we end up pregnant next year, you’ll never buy yourself one”. Although, I think he really just wanted to replace my ailing iPad 3 (I started squatting on his iPad because the games were lagging on mine). But it has been such a life saver. There were days when I couldn’t go to work because I felt so sick. But I never missed a beat because my iPad was right beside me. I could send lengthy emails in bed and I had less reason to bring my laptop with me to work every day (even if I had a meeting). Also, I could play all my games without the lagging problem. Hehe.
  1. A bag full of mints (Fox, Halls, and Ricola). During the earlier parts of my first trimester, I would often feel sick in cars and at night. I found that one way to keep the sea sickness at bay was to suck on a mint. I tried looking for round peppermints, but they only had candy canes and I couldn’t really suck on a candy cane at work.
  1. Aquaphor and Aveeno bath oils. I had really dry skin early on. These really helped me un-prune myself. Everything is pretty much back to normal, although there are some new dry (and itchy) patches around my expanding belly. I’ve started using Kirkland’s hydrocortisone cream with moisturizer and that works pretty well too!
  1. Enfamama. My mother-in-law sent me boxes of chocolate Enfamama and after our last doctor’s visit, I realized that it’s probably saved me from losing more weight. In our last doctor’s visit, I lost almost a pound and I was instructed to gain 4 pounds in a month. I told the doctor that I was drinking Enfamama and she said that I could continue, especially if I didn’t have an appetite. Enfamama was actually created as a meal replacement. I was drinking it for breakfast when I didn’t have the appetite for anything else.
  1. Vicks Vaporub and Precious Pillow. One of the more challenging things that I had to give up was my anti-histamines. Although the doctor did say I could take one when it was really bad, she said to try more natural methods first (drinking plenty of fluids, removing allergens from our home, etc.). After we cleaned our home and vacuumed our bed, I was still pretty stuffy at night. One thing that really brought relief was my husband’s macho face massages where he would rub Vicks Vaporub all over my face and massage my sinuses. Then, he would microwave our precious pillow and gently place it on my forehead. I was Radioactive Mintman every night. On really special nights, he would also grab our Messy Bessy Muscle Relief Rub, work it in through my hair, and give me a head massage. And when my back was especially achy, he would use it on my back too.
  1. Wheely bag. A good friend of mine let us borrow her wheely bag when she found out I was pregnant. I’ve been using it almost every day for work! I put everything in it! My laptop (when I need to bring it), my water jug, my lunch, iPad, books, documents, and whatever else I needed for the day. It really saved my back from a lot of pain. Even though the secretaries keep asking me what time my flight is. Hehe. It was also really useful to get a small, light-weight shoulder bag for easy access to my phone and wallet!
  1. Mikey <3. I am now in awe of all single mothers who choose or have to do this alone. I can’t imagine going through this hormonal roller coaster without my husband. Who would get the chores done? Who would make sure I get fed even when I had zero appetite? Who would make me Enfamama every morning? Who would give me macho face massages? Who would give up PS4 time when I’m extra clingy and I just want a warm body in bed with me? Who would stroke my hair and hug me while I cry hysterically because of a stupidly predictable BPI commercial? Who else would be silly enough to talk to Squishy through my bulging belly? For me, this whole pregnancy thing is definitely not a one man job.

Thank you, first trimester! Now I’m excited to find out Squishy’s gender and to feel his/her kicks. ❤

The great and the hairy

We had our 3 ½ month check-up last Friday! Every time we have a check-up, I become a little anxious. I pray and I hope that everything is okay.

Our first two check-ups involved trans-vaginal ultrasounds and our second one included a urinalysis and a blood test. Waiting for test results always makes me a little nervous. Thankfully, everything was okay and in our 2 ½ month check-up, the Doctor cleared us and told us to enjoy the rest of our pregnancy.

Our last check-up was the first that didn’t involve any tests. It was like coming by to talk to a friend and telling her how things were going so far. The check-up began with hellos and how are yous. And then the Doctor escorted me to her little examination room and whipped out her Doppler to listen to the baby’s heartbeat. During our second visit, she said that we would just try to catch the heartbeat, but at that point (10 1/2 weeks), the baby might have been too small for the Doppler to pick it up. But when we tried, we heard Squishy’s loud heartbeat! We were so happy!

This time around, there was no disclaimer. The Doctor fully expected to hear the heartbeat at 14 ½ weeks. When I got on the bed, I was a bit worried but excited at the same time. It’s pretty magical to hear your baby’s heartbeat! ❤ The Doppler was kind of acting up though—it was extra static-y and the Doctor told her nurse to have it scheduled for repair. It took a good 3-4 minutes before we heard the loud constant thump-thump-thump-thump. We were so relieved! My husband has a video of the whole thing and you can hear his sigh of relief when the Doctor finally announced that there was a heartbeat. We should really learn to relax more.

Here’s the audio of Squishy’s heartbeat:

❤ ❤ ❤ All is well.

Well, all that is truly important is well. The Doctor wouldn’t give me a medical certificate clearing me to get waxed. Huhu. So, I’m still a man. Over the weekend though, I put on a dress and painted my nails just to remind my husband (and myself) that I’m a still a girl.

Oh! And the Doctor gave us some interesting homework: gain 4 pounds by our next appointment. More on this later. My husband is very excited.

New Pencils

My husband got a new toy–FiftyThree’s Pencil. We don’t get a lot of new toys anymore because we’ve been saving up for Squishy. But he found a great* deal online and the seller was free to meet him a couple of nights ago.

He’s been doodling all day yesterday. Here’s one he made that’s Squishy-related:

My Ideas - 18


*He claims it was a great deal. I have no idea how great the deal actually was.

Update: we are currently in the market for replacement tips. After drawing all day yesterday, the tip it came with actually got worn out. 😅 It doesn’t come with the usual replacement tips–that’s why it was so cheap daw. 😅

Squishy’s Mansion

Over the weekend, my husband and I enjoyed our newly vacuumed bed (thank you Mom!) and the new sheets (thank you Mommy!) we laid out. We spent most of the weekend watching movies, reading, or iPad-ing in bed. After lunch, I was wearing these amazingly comfortable granny panties that my mom had gotten me (3 for P100! But the odd colors make me look like Jollibee) and a camisole that made me look like Winnie the Pooh.

The camisole kept rising up, baring my belly. My husband noticed that there was a distinct rise from what used to be my pelvic bones and my very round belly. He said: “this is new!” 😑

Defensive, I told him that it was because I just had lunch and that it would become smaller after. 😥 I hid under the blanket. He prodded me to come out by telling me that it was a good thing! I was building Squishy’s mansion (mansion talaga no? Not even house). He then proceeded to describe the different parts of the mansion. Here’s what the architect came up with:


😑 Oh well. At least you got to live in a Mansion at least once, Squishster! Hehe. 😅

New song added to the Squishy Playlist: Electric Love by BØRNs! ❤

Pre-meeting Poem

Oh, Squishy!
You make me mushy
I’d like to think that you love me
But right now I’m only food

Oh, Squishy!
I hope you will be yummy!
Fat all over and smiley!
I think you will be silly
Just like your Papoop

Oh, Squishy!
I won’t mind if you’re smelly
And that you gave me a belly
You are already
Our favorite Squishypoop

Mirror Mirror

I wake up and my fingers feel fatter. My rings still fit, but for some reason, they feel fatter.

I get up slowly (drastically different from how I used to zoom out of bed) to avoid getting dizzy or nauseated.

My husband and I switched bedsides so that I could be closer to the bathroom. So now, when I get up, the first thing I see is the full length mirror lining our closest wall.

Usually dressed in an over sized shirt, I feel frumpier than ever. I’m fuller EVERYWHERE. My face feels fuller and for some reason, my nose seems bigger. 😓

I guess it also doesn’t help that I’ve been declined by my usual waxing salons. So I’m growing a forest on my forehead, legs, and, well…um…my underarms. 😅 I need to wait until I can get a doctor’s certificate to get my regular waxing procedures done and our next Doctor’s visit is in about a week or so.

While I’m really lucky that my closet was already full of over sized clothes (even when I was a medium, I would prefer to buy clothes that were sized large or extra large), I sometimes feel sad that what used to be loose fitting outfits now fit just right. Also, I traded my heels for pseudo Toms from Rubi. So, not only am I frumpy, but I’m also shorter.  😁

And while most claim (I don’t) that pregnancy is the pinnacle of womanhood, I feel like the least womanly and feminine person in the world. I’m basically a hairy dude with a high voice and a big belly. 👨🏻

On the days I feel really bad about how I look, I tell my husband that I’m sure we’re going to have a boy. There’s an old wives’ tale in our country that says that when an expectant mother is blooming/glowing, she’s going to have a girl. When she’s the opposite of blooming/glowing (I suppose that would be wilting?), she’s going to have a boy. I’ve been told not to worry and that I should start blooming any day now. Any. Day. Now. 😑

Maybe I should start shopping for those long flow-y SLEEVED dresses so that I can start feeling like a lady again. Hahaha.

My Husband is the sweetest though. He’ll tell me every day how beautiful and sexy he thinks I am. And when I ask him about my bulging belly, he would reply: “what belly?” Such a sweet liar. ❤️

Midnight Giggles

I get up to pee at least once a night. I’ve also been a light sleeper since Squishy. There’s a lot of adjusting and finding the right spot for my back.

For the last two nights, I’ve been waking up to my husband giggling in his sleep. It’s very amusing.

One night, I tooted loudly enough to wake myself up. My husband, in his sleep, giggled and said: “that’s so cute”.

I asked him about it in the morning and he had no idea what I was talking about. Hehe.

Whenever people ask me what it’s like to be married, I always say that it’s fun! I’ve never had so much fun in my life. I highly recommend living with your best friend. Sometimes we wonder if we’ll lose some of our child-likeness when there’s an actual child. But my bet is that Squishy will actually enhance it. We’re already planning our circle time activities (even though three people makes a really small circle)!

🎶 Five little ducks that I once knew, fat ones, skinny ones, two by two. 🎶

Masochistic Momma

I thought that the 12th week mark meant the beginning of the second trimester. Apparently, the second trimester starts at around the 15th week. Soooo, three more weeks to go! Wee!

Earlier this week, I observed that I was less nauseated and sensitive to food smells/thoughts. I celebrated! But a few days into the week, I started having headaches and dizzy spells. I complained to my husband and I told him that I was worried that I wasn’t one of those women who would have a great second trimester.

The next day at work, I googled 12 weeks pregnant and I visited one of my regulars: Here’s some of what the site says about the week 12 [comments in brackets]:

As you near the end of your first trimester [ah, near lang pala. 😐], your uterus, now about the size of a large grapefruit [Um, well, it’s bigger than a grapefruit. But I really think it’s part Christmas belly 😅], begins to migrate from the bottom of your pelvis to a front-and-center position in your abdomen. If you’re lucky, this will bring an end to one pesky early pregnancy symptom: the constant urge to urinate [I still get up to pee every night]. Also slated to diminish somewhat now that you’re on the cusp of your second trimester are some of those other early pregnancy symptoms: nausea [YES! ☺️], super-tender breasts and nipples [YES!!!!! 🤗], food aversions and fatigue [YES!]. But don’t look now (though — considering the symptom — maybe you should), there’s a new one added to the mix: dizziness [😑 I see.].

And guess who’s to blame? Yup — it’s your old friend progesterone again, which causes your blood vessels to relax and widen around 12 weeks pregnant, increasing the flow of blood to your baby (again, good for baby) [Yaaaay! 👯], but slowing the return of blood to you (as always, not so good for mom). Less blood flow to you means lower blood pressure and reduced blood flow to your brain. These factors can contribute to that light-headed, dizzy feeling — especially when you get up too quickly — which is why slow and steady wins the race against dizziness [Hello, Chippy for breakfast!].

Textbook symptoms. It kind of sucks because I was in bed again the last two evenings. But, strangely, I am comforted and elated by the idea that all this dizziness means that Squishy is getting what he/she needs. It’s a weird twisted thing! I feel crappy, but I’m glad that I feel crappy. Hahaha. On the days when I feel good, I actually end up worrying! I wonder if everything is okay and I find myself talking to Squishy (Hey, how are you? It’s okay, you can make me feel vomit-y again.).

I suspect that there’s an evolutionary reason for these early experiences. Maybe it gives you the opportunity to practice an aspect of motherhood that may not come so naturally? I’m sure that there are loads of things that I’m going to have to do as a mom that may not feel so great but will be good for Squishy in the long run—like disciplining Squishy and setting boundaries. (Or maybe it’s my pathological need to make sense of everything. Organic unity kuno.)

Tut! Tut! There are many bridges to cross! But right now I want some more Chippy. ❤

The Squishy Playlist

There is no empirical evidence that conclusively shows that exposure to music during the prenatal stage leads to any cognitive advantages. Buuuuut who cares? Since Squishy is getting half of my genes, I’m not sure how musically talented he/she will be. My husband is very musical though, so there is hope!

Even if Squishy doesn’t become musically talented, I would still love for Squishy to love music. ❤ On lazy weekend afternoons, I often play my favorites on my iPhone and point the speakers to my belly.

Here are a few songs that I’ve been forcing on Squishy:

  1. Bon Iver’s Flume
  2. Coldplay’s Every Teardrop is a Waterfall
  3. Interference’s Gold 
  4. Defying Gravity from the musical Wicked
  5. The Flaming Lips’ Do you realize?
  6. Ingrid Michaelson’s You and I
  7. Yael Naim’s New Soul

The husband wanted to add songs to the list, but he forgets a lot and this time, I don’t want to remind him. (Think: Backstreet Boys, U2, and Boyz 2 Men)

Hello from the other siiiiiiiiiiide!

I woke up last Friday and I had more energy than I ever did since I found out I was with Squishy. My husband commented that it seemed like I was feeling better (I think it was because I was teasing him all morning). And I realized that I did! I wasn’t dizzy and the thought of food didn’t make me want to throw up. The aches and pains were not at the forefront of my mind. I felt like my old self again!

Hello, Second Trimester! Is this you and all your wonderful glory? 😀

I felt so good over the weekend that my husband and I got to go around the mall a little bit. We needed to buy a present for our nephew’s son’s christening (we became granduncles and grandaunts before we were parents). They really like Mother Care, so we decided to go to their big store in BGC. As soon as we got in, my husband started geeking out over all the strollers, car seats, and toys. It was the same kind of enthusiasm he has when he enters an Apple store.  It was very fun to watch. I had to keep reminding him that we were not there for someone else and not Squishy. Hehe.

It wasn’t just him though. After visiting the store, I realized how many things we needed to buy! My girlfriends advised me not to get the smaller things yet (bath items, clothes, and toys) because we may get those during our baby shower. But there are a few big ticket items that require research: the crib/playpen, the stroller, and the car seat.

My husband is pickier about the stroller and the car seat so I didn’t even bother researching about that. I took on the cribs. Divide and conquer!

The wooden cribs we saw in Mother Care were so beautiful. Expensive, but beautiful! If I were just buying for aesthetic purposes, I would totally get a wooden crib. But getting a playpen seems to be more practical. And my husband and I think that it’s super cute when babies smoosh their faces on the net of the playpen.

If we were in the States though, it would be a totally different ball game. They have so many affordable choices! The dream is the Da Vinci Kalani crib. Check it out!! It’s about $200 only and it grows with your child! It transforms into a full-sized bed! And it’s beautiful!!! Sigh, if only shipping wouldn’t cost and arm and a leg.