Masochistic Momma

I thought that the 12th week mark meant the beginning of the second trimester. Apparently, the second trimester starts at around the 15th week. Soooo, three more weeks to go! Wee!

Earlier this week, I observed that I was less nauseated and sensitive to food smells/thoughts. I celebrated! But a few days into the week, I started having headaches and dizzy spells. I complained to my husband and I told him that I was worried that I wasn’t one of those women who would have a great second trimester.

The next day at work, I googled 12 weeks pregnant and I visited one of my regulars: Here’s some of what the site says about the week 12 [comments in brackets]:

As you near the end of your first trimester [ah, near lang pala. 😐], your uterus, now about the size of a large grapefruit [Um, well, it’s bigger than a grapefruit. But I really think it’s part Christmas belly 😅], begins to migrate from the bottom of your pelvis to a front-and-center position in your abdomen. If you’re lucky, this will bring an end to one pesky early pregnancy symptom: the constant urge to urinate [I still get up to pee every night]. Also slated to diminish somewhat now that you’re on the cusp of your second trimester are some of those other early pregnancy symptoms: nausea [YES! ☺️], super-tender breasts and nipples [YES!!!!! 🤗], food aversions and fatigue [YES!]. But don’t look now (though — considering the symptom — maybe you should), there’s a new one added to the mix: dizziness [😑 I see.].

And guess who’s to blame? Yup — it’s your old friend progesterone again, which causes your blood vessels to relax and widen around 12 weeks pregnant, increasing the flow of blood to your baby (again, good for baby) [Yaaaay! 👯], but slowing the return of blood to you (as always, not so good for mom). Less blood flow to you means lower blood pressure and reduced blood flow to your brain. These factors can contribute to that light-headed, dizzy feeling — especially when you get up too quickly — which is why slow and steady wins the race against dizziness [Hello, Chippy for breakfast!].

Textbook symptoms. It kind of sucks because I was in bed again the last two evenings. But, strangely, I am comforted and elated by the idea that all this dizziness means that Squishy is getting what he/she needs. It’s a weird twisted thing! I feel crappy, but I’m glad that I feel crappy. Hahaha. On the days when I feel good, I actually end up worrying! I wonder if everything is okay and I find myself talking to Squishy (Hey, how are you? It’s okay, you can make me feel vomit-y again.).

I suspect that there’s an evolutionary reason for these early experiences. Maybe it gives you the opportunity to practice an aspect of motherhood that may not come so naturally? I’m sure that there are loads of things that I’m going to have to do as a mom that may not feel so great but will be good for Squishy in the long run—like disciplining Squishy and setting boundaries. (Or maybe it’s my pathological need to make sense of everything. Organic unity kuno.)

Tut! Tut! There are many bridges to cross! But right now I want some more Chippy. ❤


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